Who Am I....

I'm just a simple girl doing the best I can.  I have had the blessing and the curse of starting over more than once in life. Rebuilding from the ground up. I have taken wrong turns and hit dead ends and had to backtrack and tunnel at times just to find the path again.

I have wisdom hard earned and paid for with blood, sweat, and tears. I am spunky and confident but contrastingly insecure and contemplative.

I love with all I am and fight with the ferocity of a wild cat when hurt or betrayed.  I am devil and saint depending on the cause, and I am determined and hopeful always.

I am mother and friend, every hour of every day.  I am distant and occasional sibling and daughter.  I am in love with a man who has known me for more than 30 years and who has seen me at my best and worst and still accepts me.I am neither perfect nor corrupted.

When I fall asleep at night, it is most often fulfilled and whole. When I wake each day it is frequently with vigor and enthusiasm for what lies ahead. I laugh easily and cry quietly.

I am both selfless and selfish, ever enthralled in battle to do what is right for others but still right for me.

I think politics and religion are both deeply personal and volatile subjects and I choose rather than to debate the points , to resign myself to respect that each person has their own view. 

I forgive but never forget. I believe in honesty and loyalty and strive to always hold myself true to their meanings.  I am jealous and possessive. I am controlling and concise. But I am giving and kind , generous and protective.

I lead with logic, always using my head before my heart, but I am easily swayed through loving words and compliments.

I am a contradiction to myself, but I am me and that's all I can ever be.